Hey Ragers and Ragettes!
Well, summer has been winding down, thank God!!
Yes, I am one of the few people that suffer from the summertime blues. The beginning of Summer is always promising. Then it just gets a hot, humid, sweaty mess. My hair cannot take it!!!!
So around about August, the Summertime blues climaxes for me
This year has been particularly bad.
Since I have moved into my new place, I have mentioned in previous posts, I am now finally digesting everything that has happened to me. There has been a lot of tears, tantrums and even dark suicidal thoughts.
This summer has been strange.
Firstly, I have come to the decision, as much as I like being on my own in my own place, I can't do village life. I need to be in the city center. Whether that is Manchester, Liverpool or some other city, I need to be in the thick of it. So when my lease is up next April, I am moving out. My home is great. I love how it has stayed lovely and cool in the summer, but it's just too boring. Plus I have a really nosy neighbor. She is an old lady who I think is rather lonely. Someday's, I want to just get in and take my bra and pants off and just relax. I don't want to talk to people. I just want to sit back and do nothing. She likes to chat to me and she constantly repeats herself. She is a lovely lady just a bit too nosy.
Also, I am living a little too close to my old crazy ex-roommate. I get scared that I am going to bump into her when I am out and about. That's why I want to be back in the city center where I feel safe in the anonymity of the hustle and bustle.
Secondly, Mr Wonderful I don't think is the right man for me. He is 52 years old, 15 years older, but he is an old 52. He forgets everything you tell him, he falls asleep early on the couch and finally I took him to a place that is very special to me and he was just bored with it. He doesn't like going for walks, like I do.
But he has also bought me tickets and paid for a 5 star hotel in Barcelona for my birthday...yeah....So I feel a bit stuck. He's so nice but he's not just for me. Plus in the bedroom, he sometimes cannot rise to the occasion which is rather embarrassing. Plus it's to the point that the "cute" little quirks that were cute at first are now down right irritating. He makes this grrrrrr'ing sound and he even texts it!!! It actually greats right on my B Cups!! This is why I am happy he lives so far away.
I'm going to let it run it's course and relish in the fact that he treats me like a goddess. I believe the situation will sort itself out
So I have been bumping along in my new surroundings, getting used to how things are and just going through the motions.
Work has been super busy. The whole summer I have been repricing the whole product range, a task I had to do 7 times!! Yes, 1,105 products repriced 7 times. That sucks. We are finialising everything now. So after this week I don't have to think about it anymore.
I always seem to come alive when September 1st hits. It seems to be a time of rebirth for me. That's when new prospects show themselves and I meet new people. It's always an exciting time and I have to say that I am really looking forward to it.
The last part of August is when I usually have a meltdown. This has happened. It usually entails a lot of crying, feeling helpless and scared and like a victim, which I detest!!! Victim mentality is loser mentality.
But also, the weather turns. It gets cooler, sweaters come out, boots, darker evenings, leaves turning beautiful colors. It's the season of hot cocoa, chilli and fleecy pajamas.
Yes, I am counting the days down!!!
So, here I am. I am doing the best I can to find where I belong. Here I am taking care of my health, I am back at the gym and eating good food.
Plus I am excited to change my hair again! I am working with the work's salon and I have found a great new color! I cannot wait to get it done!!!
So, Ragers and Ragettes, 3 more days until the start of autumn, (I know the official start of autumn is September 22nd, but for me it starts turning September 1st!) 3 more days until the new phase of my life starts.
My mood is changing. My attitude is improving, I see the finish line ahead...
Until next time, Ragers and Ragettes, keep your head and standards high and your heels even higher
Lots of Love
The Fabulous Betty Rage xxxxxxxxx
