Hey Ragers and Ragettes!!!
Its a mildish day here in the south Manchester. They say summer is on it's way with temperatures to be hotter than in Spain! So I have plenty of sundresses ready along with my sandals. Tonight I shall be painting my toenails as I will be wearing sandals to work tomorrow.
Well, I am still feeling horny as fuck. As the weather gets warmer it gets worse.
And to make things more interesting I have started chatting to this guy who lives in London. Mike (Not real name to protect the innocent.) and I met on Facebook. It started with me commenting on a friend of mine's post. He also commented and a bunch of women jumped on him for being a dude and not understanding, I kind of defended him. I then sent him a message saying that I understood his point of view and well, we have been chatting for over a week now.
Mike is different to Simon. Like really different. He's sensitive, sweet, intelligent and he has a beard. I have never been with a man with a beard before. Ever.
Our conversations have been lighthearted, every once and awhile dipping into deep stuff. We message in the evening mostly. He works as a psychologist in London and he finishes work at 8pm most nights.
The problem is 2 fold. Firstly, I have been out of the flirting chatting to man thing for a bit so to speak. I have no idea what to do. Do I get raunchy? Do I keep it light? Do I get deep? I don't know what to do or how to play this game.
It's like playing chess. What piece do I move? Do I get direct and down and dirty? Do I send him photos? Will this go anywhere? Am I wasting my time? Fuck, I have no idea what to do or what to think or to feel or to do. This is one big head fuck.
Secondly I am on a man ban until October 9th. And with the heat and my penchant for watching Brazilian TV shows where the main character is super fit and walks around with his shirt off for most of the show...(Lord have mercy! Seriously this guy is super hot and super fit and super fuckable...) This sucks. This sucks really bad.
Part of me wants to go to London meet up with Mike and give him a weekend he will never forget. But then there is the man ban, And my body isn't in its best shape and if I did and I got to the part where we kiss (I haven't had a proper kiss for over a year) and things got hot would I even remember what to do?
This is a game that I am struggling to know what the rules are. Mike is amazing. One day I would love to meet up with him for a coffee and laugh with him. One day I would love to look into his eyes and maybe find out what it is like to kiss those luscious full lips. Maybe relearn everything again with him.
But I am sticking to the man ban.
As horny and sexually frustrated I am right now I couldn't handle a relationship and especially a long distance one. I am not strong enough yet.
So it looks like more batteries for me and my favorite dildo while muffling the sounds of the buzzing and biting pillows to stop me from groaning as I climax so my landlady doesn't hear me. It's going to be a long 22 weeks. But its time for me to get my body and mind in shape.
You never know, in 22 weeks time I might be in London having dinner with Mike. Life is funny like that. So is this game.
Until next time Ragers and Ragettes keep your head and standards high and your heels even higher!
Lots of Love
The Fabulous Betty Rage xxxxx
