Wednesday, 12 October 2016

On New Hair

Hey Ragers and Ragettes!  Autumn is here!!!  Today I am wearing my black and white striped jumper with my favourite bell bottom jeans and my new knee high black flat boots.  Dressing for warmth and comfort as I sit under the air conditioning and Simon seems to always be hot. 

 It’s been a crazy few weeks, as you know.  With Nana Rage passing and with work and everything else, well, it’s taken its toll on my mental health.  I have had a few panic attacks and crying fits.  I know it’s not right so I have sought out professional help.  I have an appointment on the 18th and one on the 25th to assess my first diagnosis of bipolar disorder. They think that I was misdiagnosed as I have other background symptoms that are now starting to express themselves. My original diagnosis was 20 years ago.  They feel that mental health screening has improved loads so they want to make sure that I get the right treatment.

So I am going to try and be uplifting today.

As you know, I have battled with my hair. I was a hair model last year but the haircut didn’t get cleaned up the way it should have.  Luckily I found a new hairdresser who is amazing. She cleaned the shambles of a hair cut up, redyed it and I looked human, and a fabulous one at that rocking a cute pink pixie crop.

I have always wanted long Rapunzel like hair.  I made the decision to grow my hair out a bit as I have never really had long hair before.  I have really baby fine hair.  And when it gets to a certain length, it becomes wispy, stringy and horrid.  That’s why I have always had short hair. 

I have decided to get the long hair I have dreamed of with the help of hair extensions.  I had hair extensions 10 years ago when I lived in Dublin.  I chose glue in ones. It ended in a hairdresser physically having to cut the extensions out and me having a bald patch. Not a good look!

This time, I did my research and I am going for nano ring extensions.  This is better for hair, it allows growth and it doesn’t damage hair. 

The woman I have chosen to do the extensions is fabulous.  She has so many positive reviews and is well known around Liverpool.   I have been speaking to her since October last year.  I had a 1 to 1 consultation to make a hair plan last December.  I had to grow my hair out to at least 5 inches in the back.  I was going to get the extensions in May this year but I had a wobble and ended up cutting my hair as I was rocking a shocking looking mullet. 

But with the help of my new hairdresser (And my hairdresser threatening to punch me in the vag if I even think about cutting my hair) and with photos of long beautiful hair as inspiration, I can proudly say that my hair now skims my shoulders. 

So on Saturday, I went to see the woman who is fitting my extensions to colour match my hair.  She sat me down and she said that she was proud of my persistence in growing my hair out and was pleased with the condition.  (Twice a week deep conditioning treatments and using Bed Head Colour Goddess Shampoo – That is the best shampoo ever!  It smells like fudge!)  As my hair is relatively short, she decided on 10-12 inch extensions (The hair will fall just below my collar bones.)  and matched beautiful chestnut brown hair swatches to mine.

So I will be having my extensions fitted at 11am on October 22nd (a birthday present for me!!!!!!!!!) and it will take 3 hours to complete.  She said that when she is fitting them she will talk through the maintenance and such.  The thing I love about the person I have chosen to do my extensions is that she is big on aftercare.   Her philosophy is that when she fits the extensions, I will represent her work professionally.  So she hammers home the aftercare side of it.  

So to say that I am excited about it is an understatement!  New gorgeous hair on the horizon!  I am giving myself a year with the extensions to see how I feel about it.  And if they don’t work out I am going to chop my hair off and go back to a funky turquoise haircut.

This has provided a welcome distraction from everything that has happened.  The feelings that I have been feeling are ugly.  Some of the thoughts that have gone through my head have left me shaken.   The last few weeks I have burst into tears for no reason.  People think that I should just smile, get over it.  I do my best to keep myself up and motivated.  My workouts help out massively.  And Suzanne, like always,  has been my rock.  I now know who my friends are and I have ht the jackpot with Suzanne.

So I am focusing on getting my luscious long hair.  I am ramping it up at the gym, eating better foods, getting sleep and trying to find good things to focus on. 

So, in 10 days I will have the hair of my dreams and hopefully I will be stronger, happier and hopefully I can work through this snit that  I am in and come back fighting stronger.

And to those who are reading this that are fighting depression or any mental health disorder, you’re not alone.  Message me.  I will listen, help, and make you laugh.  I will do what I can to help you.  You are not alone.

So until next time, Ragers and Ragettes, keep your head and standards high and your heels even higher. 

Lots of Love

The Fabulous Betty Rage xxxxx