Hey Ragers and Ragettes!
Autumn is here!!! Today I am
wearing my black and white striped jumper with my favourite bell bottom jeans
and my new knee high black flat boots.
Dressing for warmth and comfort as I sit under the air conditioning and
Simon seems to always be hot.
It’s been a crazy few
weeks, as you know. With Nana Rage
passing and with work and everything else, well, it’s taken its toll on my
mental health. I have had a few panic
attacks and crying fits. I know it’s not
right so I have sought out professional help.
I have an appointment on the 18th and one on the 25th to
assess my first diagnosis of bipolar disorder. They think that I was misdiagnosed as I have other background symptoms that are now starting to express themselves. My original
diagnosis was 20 years ago. They feel
that mental health screening has improved loads so they want to make sure that
I get the right treatment.
So I am going to try and be uplifting today.
As you know, I have battled with my hair. I was a hair
model last year but the haircut didn’t get cleaned up the way it should
have. Luckily I found a new hairdresser
who is amazing. She cleaned the shambles of a hair cut up, redyed it and I
looked human, and a fabulous one at that rocking a cute pink pixie crop.
I have always wanted long Rapunzel like hair. I made the decision to grow my hair out a bit
as I have never really had long hair before.
I have really baby fine hair. And
when it gets to a certain length, it becomes wispy, stringy and horrid. That’s why I have always had short hair.
I have decided to get the long hair I have dreamed of with
the help of hair extensions. I had hair
extensions 10 years ago when I lived in Dublin.
I chose glue in ones. It ended in a hairdresser physically having to cut
the extensions out and me having a bald patch. Not a good look!
This time, I did my research and I am going for nano ring
extensions. This is better for hair, it
allows growth and it doesn’t damage hair.
The woman I have chosen to do the extensions is
fabulous. She has so many positive
reviews and is well known around Liverpool.
I have been speaking to her since October last year. I had a 1 to 1 consultation to make a hair
plan last December. I had to grow my
hair out to at least 5 inches in the back.
I was going to get the extensions in May this year but I had a wobble
and ended up cutting my hair as I was rocking a shocking looking mullet.
But with the help of my new hairdresser (And my hairdresser
threatening to punch me in the vag if I even think about cutting my hair) and
with photos of long beautiful hair as inspiration, I can proudly say that my
hair now skims my shoulders.
So on Saturday, I went to see the woman who is fitting my
extensions to colour match my hair. She
sat me down and she said that she was proud of my persistence in growing my
hair out and was pleased with the condition.
(Twice a week deep conditioning treatments and using Bed Head Colour
Goddess Shampoo – That is the best shampoo ever! It smells like fudge!) As my hair is relatively short, she decided
on 10-12 inch extensions (The hair will fall just below my collar bones.) and matched beautiful chestnut brown hair
swatches to mine.
So I will be having my extensions fitted at 11am on October
22nd (a birthday present for me!!!!!!!!!) and it will take 3 hours
to complete. She said that when she is
fitting them she will talk through the maintenance and such. The thing I love about the person I have
chosen to do my extensions is that she is big on aftercare. Her philosophy is that when she fits the
extensions, I will represent her work professionally. So she hammers home the aftercare side of it.
So to say that I am excited about it is an
understatement! New gorgeous hair on the
horizon! I am giving myself a year with
the extensions to see how I feel about it.
And if they don’t work out I am going to chop my hair off and go back to a funky turquoise haircut.
This has provided a welcome distraction from everything that
has happened. The feelings that I have
been feeling are ugly. Some of the
thoughts that have gone through my head have left me shaken. The last few weeks I have burst into tears
for no reason. People think that I
should just smile, get over it. I do my
best to keep myself up and motivated. My
workouts help out massively. And Suzanne,
like always, has been my rock. I now know who my friends are and I have ht the jackpot with Suzanne.
So I am focusing on getting my luscious long hair. I am ramping it up at the gym, eating better
foods, getting sleep and trying to find good things to focus on.
So, in 10 days I will have the hair of my dreams and
hopefully I will be stronger, happier and hopefully I can work through this
snit that I am in and come back fighting
stronger.
And to those who are reading this that are fighting depression
or any mental health disorder, you’re not alone. Message me.
I will listen, help, and make you laugh.
I will do what I can to help you.
You are not alone.
So until next time, Ragers and Ragettes, keep your head and
standards high and your heels even higher.
Lots of Love
The Fabulous Betty Rage xxxxx
